New Life

Easter was pretty great. My family and I spent it at a park and I thought it was going to be really hard. But it ended up not being so bad. It was pretty tough being around the spread of food that a holiday brings and I got a little tired at the end but nothing major. My BB had so much fun so that was really nice to see. He got a lot of attention which is great because I'm not always able to be as attentive as he needs. I'm really struggling to think of ways to make my HH feel special or just to give him some type of gift in thanks for everything he has done and is doing everyday. I'm not good at this kind of thing when I feel "pressured" to think of something. I do randomly get great ideas for gifts for people, just not when I need them haha. Hate that. But it was a great day celebrating the resurrection and being reminded that because of what Jesus did I have access to abundant life here and now, healing, restoration and eternal life. Pretty amazing and it took on a more significant meaning this year. Being that I'm in the middle of struggling with discouragement and  trying to heal from this surgery. It was really empowering.
I noticed significant improvement in the swelling this morning so THAT'S really encouraging! My family notices a difference daily but I'm usually not able to see it at all, so today when I woke up and was able to see a difference myself, it was exciting. Last night I had a bit of an issue with my rubber bands. I wear 6 and 2 of them are wayyy back on the sides of my mouth and really tough to put on. For some reason, I could not put on the one on the right side. The rubber band kept breaking which would send my metal tong like tool jamming into my gums, right where I have some stitches. I did it 3 times and it bled every time. It was making me so anxious so I left the back 2 bands out. That in turn made me feel tons of pressure on my other teeth. My surgeon, as wonderful as he is and I'm thankful for him, does not explain ANYTHING to me. So I was really nervous about deciding what the lesser evil would be, leaving out the bands or trying again and hitting stitches. Like I said I opted for leaving them out and it just really didn't feel right. I googled the reason for wearing rubber bands after surgery (which I really shouldn't have to do) and apparently it's all about adjusting and perfecting your bite and it really matters.  I just emailed the surgeon about it, prayed, and went to bed. But now, here I am again wondering, should I try to put them on this morning? I want to avoid going under for any reason like the plague and I also wouldn't want to get stitches redone while I'm awake so I really don't want to mess with that area. Argh! I may get creative and place some wet cotton balls over the area  so that if it happens again it'll hit the cotton and not my gums but that's in theory, not sure if it'll really work. Wish me luck.