I'm attempting to start moving my upper lip area more often in order to hopefully restore some feeling and movement there. Annnnd reduce the ridiculous swelling. The people who are around me most keep saying it's not that bad and I know compared to before, it's really not. But my good 'ol neighbor makes sure I know that, yup, it's pretty bad. My skin is kinda getting better though. So that's a plus. The time to return to work is coming up really fast now! I can't believe it. It's a foreign concept to think about having to be awake and ready by a certain time and to also be at work for 9 hours. And on top of that they implemented a whole new system right after I left. AND I still have to deal with adapting/blending meals, eating them as neatly as I can (nearly impossible), keeping my mouth meticulously clean and being banded shut and unable to speak. Argh. It'll be a new challenge. I'm a little conflicted as to whether I should continue my habit of getting up for 10 minutes every hour to move around (sitting for long periods is extremely detrimental to your health!) or if I should conserve the calories. I'm not sure. On that note, I weighed 98 pounds this morning (sad I know) and 101 pounds by 8:30pm! It fluctuates like that all the time. I look so pitifully skinny and boney around my shoulders and arms. And my butt...it's just a sad situation. Worse than losing weight (that's EASY to put back on) I've lost all my muscle. I was just starting to put a tiny bit back on after having my son and now it's all gone. THAT'S harder to put on. But it'll be my new focus and challenge once I conquer this recovery. By the way, I was going to take a before and after picture of my milkshake but I was so excited that I forgot...and quickly ate it.
My uncle in Florida sent me a message saying that he's praying for me and that I am very brave. That really makes me feel good! I guess, by the grace of God, I kinda am! It's true that bravery is not the lack of fear, it's doing difficult things despite feeling fear. That's a new label for me but I'm gonna make sure I get used to it.
Super cute moments of the day: the ice cream man was driving by (the source of the ice cream sandwich) and my BB stood at the door and yelled at the top of his lungs STOP! STOP! while holding out his little palm, his face pressed to the broken screen. I taught him that hahaha. Later, while he was playing in his playroom, I was able to kiss him almost the way I used to do all the time (which is repeatedly kissing him all over his little cheek). He must've noticed because he put down the toy he was playing with and turned his precious little face right up to mine and smiled the sweetest smile. Then he put his cheek back out as if to say, go on, continue. SOOOOO SWEET! What else could you need in life?
Whatever's In Your Pantry Chicken Tortilla Soup
4 cups chicken broth (I used the broth I made when boiling my chicken breasts)
2 cups shredded cooked chicken
1 cup frozen corn, thawed
1 can black beans, drained and rinsed
1 1/2 large corn tortillas, sliced into strips
1 cup salsa (mine was too spicy for my weak cuban palate)
1 can condensed cream of chicken soup (I had the low fat one)
1-1.5 tsp cumin
1 tsp whole oregano (rub it in between your palms before dropping in to release all the oils/aroma)
1 tsp dried cilantro (or fresh if you have it but add it at the end)
pinch of salt and pepper, to taste
Add all the ingredients to your favorite pot and simmer away. The longer the better because the flavors marry and the broth thickens. I did a little over 30 minutes. Top with cheese or whatever else you like and enjoy! (I blended it and it was creamy and delicious)
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